The UnOfficial Me

kali ni mmg niat nak membebel.... ada beberapa insiden yg saya rasa perlu ulasan.....

FIRST
pasal cerita org berniaga online..... selalunya org berniaga online ni org yg makan gaji... or peniaga yg ada kedai n buat online as part time.... cuma handful of us yg berniaga online ni full time..... so kalau buat kerja part time ni, tak lah rasa bersungguh sangat.. buat pun sbb nak cari duit shopping or aim designer handbag rega puluhan ribu yg mmg tak boleh beli kalau makan gaji semata kan? satu kejadian ni, jadi kat saya dengan satu peniaga online... katakanlah dia berniaga kek.... first time order.. mmg meletop... puas hati yg teramat sangat.... sampai order lagi kali kedua untuk buat birthday anak... so kali kedua ni... kek yg diberi toping cair meleleh.... sbbnya kak baru masak, tp sbb dah janji nak ambil tengahari so tuang jugak lah topping tu.... saya tak jugak reti serik... then kali ketiga order kek katakanlah untuk 2 haribulan... tup2 pagi2 2 haribulan tu dpt sms, kek tak siap sbb dia angau laki jauh nak balik hari itu n dia ingatkan kek deliver hari esoknya...so dia ckp esok sahaja keknya....... cuba bayangkan betapa terkejutnya saya....kalau kek itu untuk majlis apa2 tak ke payah nak cari substitute last2 minute..... duit pun dah bayar 3 hari lepas.... mcm mana ni? nak tak nak saya kensel order... sbb saya nak kek hari 2hb, bukannya 3hb.... tp kes ni tak habis kat sini....lepas seminggu duit saya pun tak dipulangkan lagi sedangkan nombor acct sudah diberi awal2.... bila saya tanya, n mungkin saya tunjukkan betapa kecewanya saya, peniaga ini boleh sentap.... saya beritahu, awak terlalu banyak alasan dan saya relate kes yang berlaku pada saya... niat saya cuma satu... untuk memberitahu betapa kecewanya saya terhadap apa yang berlaku... tak terlintas langsung nak ambil tahu apa lagi alasan beliau... tak boleh juga.... siap ckp alah cuma rm70.... apa masalah sebenar peniaga ini hanya tuhan sahaja yang tahu sbb kalau rasa tak boleh nak handle, silalah jangan berniaga... silalah jgn sanggup order orang... benda penting tu..... time deliver penting so you boleh plan bila nak bake... date deliver penting so you boleh plan bila nak saipkan.... jgn kasi alasan... tp bila kita ckp you always give excuses... tak pulak boleh terima... siap ckp org lain tak ada masalah... then, kalau tak ada masalah kenapa semuanya jadi pada order saya? n kenapa marah balik bila saya tanya duit dah return belum... itu duit akak la diknon.... i have the rights to ask.....
from today onwards, mmg takkan ku order online lagi barang2 makan nih... sakit ati!!!

SECOND
payah nak tahu orang jujur atau tidak dengan kita.... mungkin di depan bercakap bagai lembut lidah dari gigi tapi dibelakang mcm tak ingat akan mati.... tak kiralah saudara mara ataupun sahabat... payah nak cari yg benar2 ikhlas dan jujur.... ada juga yang berlawan2..... contohnya kalau dia tengok beli kereta import, boleh dia lawan beli yang lebih hebat lagi.... ataupun bila kita bercerita kita nak beli kereta, hinanya kita bila dicadangkan kita beli kereta cabuk sahaja.... manusia demikian saya amat suka perhatikan dan gelakkan sahaja di dalam hati sebab kita pun tahu dia bila bercerita sendiri pun tak gaji tak cukup untuk belanja diri dan isteri.... tapi lagak bagai org yg punya wang berlebihan bertong2.... dunia.....

nothing can describe the feeling of losing the loved ones. it's unfair for me to write this post because I know there is someone close that feel the loss even more than me.

how painful it stings, how hard to express there is one thing for sure....

Allah The Mighty knows the best and my dear late cousin with her baby girl is now in a far better place than she was. Al - Fatihah

citer menarik sure kena sharekan? ada la manusia yg cukup suka menorak(my hubby ckp xda perkataan torak!haha).bila menorak psl kerja kat ofis,sure ada bijak pandai boleh detect kan? boleh citer sana sini psl pernah  buat itu ini,tp bila org suh xplain terus gagap.apa tandanya? sure menorak lahkan.                    tuhan saja yg tahuooo

sayang.... tapi menyampah....
benci.... tapi suka....
how la ni? bila nak jadi sayang bertambah sayang...hilang rasa benci?
hati tak tenteram.... kelam kabut... serabut.... sunyi.....
sapa nak share? dah lah selalu simpan sendiri kalau ada masalah.... tak pernah rasa nak kongsi perasaan.....
never felt like this ever! apa lah masalah pun tak tahu.....

i can say it was love.... once i denied it, burying deep down.... tp kalau dah cinta tu cinta jugak lah kan.... kalau dah terpandang, pasti teringat balik ... terkenang.....sayang... keliru....

bad...bad.....
teruk jugak bila sakit ni, specially kalau yg jarang sakit.... exception to yg selalu buat2 sakit..(ahem!) just imagine, jarang sakit, suddenly doktor ckp u dah kena cancer stage 4.... tak ker terkedu? tak ke tertanya apa lah nasib ku? life must go on..... kalau asyik dok fikir, apa nak jadi kat anak2? kesian kat anak2.....

or should i put it as bossy lady? got 2 story related to the title (ahem, one of it should be bossy girl not lady la).
first one, bout a lady (name cannot be mention,use your imagination okeh?) who controls everything ... dia lah pegang duit gaji laki dia... dialah tukang decide anything for the family... dia lah tukang kasi final decision tuk semua... pas tuh keras kepala hati kering type... (pesal lah aku takleh jadik mcm ni... part yg berjaya pegang duit gaji laki tuh paling kuidamkan! adooii) hahahha.... tak pernah laie aku terfikir kalau gaduh laki bini sampai lari rumah mertua nak mengadu pasal laki.... kalau wa jadik mak mertua, sure wa dah sound sedap2 dah kat that lady... pastuh dok perang laki bini kecoh sekampung.... apa daaa.... buat2 la fikir malu kat anak2 kecik.... misschubbyface pun leh terheran.....
another story, bossy girl ni.... she has a cousin that she can control.... sepupu dia pulak, eventho tua setahun dari dia, tukang mengekor ajer..... chubbyface lah ketua.... kesian dia bully her cousin.... menakutkan.... siapalah menantu aku nanti.... sure dia hentak2 ajer.....

think I need to change, urgently. if i got too comfy, i will take things for granted. overlooked new opportunities and greater challenges. sempena dengan bulan ramadhan ini, i will change. tunggu ajer la apa yg akan berubah..... hahahha.... but my promise to myself, it will be an upgrade.... will not let myself agree to second best anymore. insyaallah

suspen tak dengan ayat2 diatas... to fellow jaki sisters n brothers.... tolong doakan untuk saya yer... cukup2lah korang ni.... buat2lah berubah.... nothing kekal in this world except Allah.

Selamat Berpuasa, Selamat Berterawikh.

completed the 4th day of puasa. so far managed not-to-go-to-pasar-ramadhan yet. semua home cooked by my very (bodek sket!) loving mr-hubby. first day he made karipap pusar (korang jgn la gelak... serius ni.... sedappp) and as vouched by miss-chubby-face, it was superb! second day he made cendol.... yesterday was cucur udang together with home made chilli .... today, since miss-chubby-face like the cendol so much... second round of cendol.... gler sedap.... the wifey buat apa? hahahhahaha kalau berani, sila lah tanya......
looking forward for potluck with cuz n sistah this weekend. korang silalah masak sesedap mungkin.... jgn sampai kena komplen with miss-chubby-face dah la.... minah tu tak kuasa!(dia sebut puasa as kuasa)
speaking of miss-chubby-face.... what kind of 3yr old yg boleh auta macam2 bila granparents tanya puasa ke tidak? first day dia jawab tak puasa sbb demam.... second day dia ckp tak puasa sbb sakit gigi (amenda tuh?) third day pun alasan sakit gigi... kena makan sbb kalau tak dia makin sakit gigi tuh.... today.... sebab terpening! so kena makan jugak kalau tak lagi terpening....
anak sapa ni sebenarnya? did I gave birth to a lawyer/politician? adoiiiiiiiiiiiiii

kadang-kadang ada masa when we are ahead of time, news yg baru to people tp dah basi kat kita tak tahu cemana nak react. kalau cakap ooo i heard about it already, karang kecik pulak hati.... tp kalau act surprised or "this-is-soo-new-new-i-never-heard-bout-this" karang fake pulak.... so how? should i practice my acting skill or i just be the back of the pack yg mmg sial lama giler dapat berita sensasi? ish sungguh bodoh ini persoalan..... serabut...confused... bosan....

other thing yg sesuai dalam tajuk ini title ialah..... kekeliruan orang dalam hal masing-masing... manusia ni yg keliru, itu ada yg hisap dadah sampai nak pulak jadik pencuri sampai nak pulak jadik pembohong sampai nak pulak kacau orang lain.... bodoh sebenarnya manusia ni.... tuhan sudah kasi akal, otak... tapi bawak jer ke hulu ke hilir... tak pulak diguna untuk dibuat pertimbangan berakal.....

what's wrong with me today? emo? the truth is i am very much deep in thoughts!

too self centered, none of your business, do not bother me as I do not bother you. Sometimes too inclined to be out-of-this world-rude, but lantak la.... kalau dia tak kacau orang, pehal lak korang sibuk? sense some jealosy here..... hahahahhahaha

apasal ler aku merapek ni? i finished 2 pic frames for my cousin, 1 wedding album to another cousin..... am going to finish my house box.... gonna start doing my own album (alamak... mini album for last month break pun tak complete lagi... adoiii)

the pic is one of the vain ones i took..... hahahahah

lemme put it in open.... i am too busy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! with the 9to5 things that has dragged all the way to 8pm then with more work to be completed at home... i neeeeeeeeeedddddddddd a break...... not a short 2nite thingy which was spent on arts-n-crafts classes.... but a real-lazy-doin-nothing-being-served-and-pampered-break.... where can i find the time? i still owe my frens the pic of Sg trip, to complete an album, to edit lotsa photos,catchin up wth my baking,some needlework action on my bajukurung......... aiyooohhhhh.... any volunteers out there?

i wonder how ppl can blog daily, let alone making money out of it. for me, updating daily has become a luxury. i cannot afford to update my blog, share my thoughts and write my views because of the very one thing that i cannot afford right now. yeap! its the TIME. my oh my... time has become very precious and rare for me lately. finding a free and easy time is like finding dino's fossil in a desert. how i envy those ppl that have all the time to spend and live leisurely. goddammit, where did all my time go? i am blaming it all on the 9-5 thingy that has dominating most of my 24hrs schedule.... ouch! where did i go wrong?????
preciousness!!!

never occur to me that my lovely ceo gonna perform in our annual dinner, let alone in the opening dance number.... she did and so did a handful mgmt committee members (hmmm.... where did they practice? hehe).
i managed to shoot some very good pics, am getting better handling my dslr but stil very pathetic in editing job (hey, if i can get the pic rite... i shouldn't be doin a lotta editing... rite?). am soooo very looking forward to a session on editing. please, let my editing sifu available very very soon.... cannot postpone much longer......

mental note to self.... please complete your llil sis doorgift bag before 6mar... else i will be in deep trouble.... its 1000 pieces, so better start now!!!

never thought that learning photography is easy nowadays. as a cannot-understand-photo-jargon person, I have found the solution. Its photomama..... it is so easy to understand, saifulnang makes it so easy for the plain people to be able to capture the moment as good as pro. it a very precious knowledge, and with constant practice and experiment, you can get a good result.....

misschubbyface is down with fever today. last nite she woke up at 2am and didnt sleep till 530, her temp was more than 28 last nite....

but, does this look like a sick child?


go figure!

this a a continuation of the not-yet-over-bday-celebration. gosh!!! having a 3 years old is really occupying a tweentyish plus2 mother (ahem! hahahaha). after the nak-kat-mummy-episode celebration on friday, where we bring this to the studio....

hope thay like it... it was such a last minute thingy where i just wham bam put it together.....
but then also, i have sent this over to them as a token of our appreciation...
this card fares better coz i have more time to prepare and i know the persons that are getting it. sometimes its a challenge for me to create a card without actually knowing the receiver.... coz it actually helps for me to visualize the level of acceptance and liking... hehehe... that my humble opinion.... i believe the other pro cropper does not have the same problem as I do... huhu...

well, i guess misschubbyface was very contented after all this.... she shud not be expecting the other celebration we have planned for her.... hahahahahaha

mental thoughts to myself..... next year CNY, be extra careful.

This year is the hattrick to say... it all started on 2007 CNY where I cut my right thumb and managed to get 6 stiches... (so later i did not do any cooking/housework... etc..) then on 2008 CNY I slammed the car door onto the same thumb (yeap, the right one) and it took me almost 1 month to heal ..... well, my good luck continue this year.... on the eve of CNY.... hot oil was splashed onto my right arm and some on my tummy......luckily i did not panic or else it can get worse... specilly the tummy part (how on earth shud i dress for work? erk!!!) I am quite worry what will happen next year.... "touch wood"